If there ever was a year that I am forever glad to see the back of – It’s 2023
I can’t speak for anyone else but for me the year 2023 was the most emotionally exhausting, mentally draining, stressful, upsetting, soul destroying year I’ve ever had
Highlights Include:
The never ending arguments and battles with the NDIS – just to get my basic needs met
The never ending battles with my body – just to get it to function on the most basic level
The constant anxiety attacks over showering ( Yeah, sounds weird right? Trust me, it ain’t when it’s one of the most painful experiences of your day)
My Grandfather passing away ( and finding out my Step-Grandmother on my Mother’s side is NOT the person I always thought she was)
At a point where my (Internet) life hit rock bottom and came crashing down around my ears – coming to terms with the fact that people who swore they were my BFF - when they were in fact not – was one of the hardest lessons I’ve ever had to learn. That said:
To Jo, Bonnie, Ginelle, Grace, Zig and Sharon (Shazza)
If any of you read this- I just want you to know that I appreciate you more than you know. When I needed someone to listen to me vent and sob – you guys were there for me. ( Time Zones and IRL things aside) and for that reason, I am forever your friend – and should you need me I will always be there for you.
Extra shout out to Jo and Bonnie who checked in on me nearly every single day. You two are the real MVP and even though I know I wasn’t exactly the easiest person to deal with at times - You still stood by me and for that I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Speaking of thank you’s –
I just want to thank my Husband, A. Without Him, this year would’ve been so, so much worse.
He has held my hand all throughout this year . Listened to me vent, scream and rant only to turn around and hold me while I cried.
He has been my Support (as frustrating, aggravating and downright exhausting as it is) and my rock. Been there when I needed him most and even when I don’t – been there with a reason to make me smile …. every day. So, too my Husband, I love you. Thank you x
To my Support workers – Miss B, Miss M and Miss C – Thank you for all your help and support this year. You lovely ladies are worth your weight in gold and your assistance in day to day tasks has been a Godsend! You have seriously gone above and beyond this year and We ( Hubby and I) cannot thank you enough for all that you’ve done!
To everyone who has simply stuck it out with me this year. Who has read my blog, who has interacted with me online ( regardless of the platform) - I thank you . For making me smile. For making me laugh. For making me think and for everything else in between. It’s been lovely interacting with you . I hope to continue to do so in 2024
As a final post for 2023 on FaceBook ( I refuse to call it META) I wrote:
“In 2024- I’m not setting out to accomplish any goals. Nor am I going to chase my dreams or exceed any expectations… I’m way beyond exhausted and I just don’t have any spoons left to give that an ounce of thought. Instead, I’m going to use it to lick my wounds and heal. To say no more often. Dedicate some time for self care and comfort.
I won’t be spending 2024 chasing after people or things that aren’t worth my time or effort and I certainly won’t be making an effort to rekindle any friendships lost over the last 12 months.
I won’t be apologising for existing. I’m done trying to justify my reasons for being. I’m done caring about whether or not what I do is right for others . 2024 will see me being openly selfish – and I am not ashamed to admit to that
I know some people will read this and they won’t like it one bit! And to those people I say.. as a wise woman once said “It’s not about you!”
Goodbye 2023 you absolute fuck hole of a year. May I never have another year like you in my lifetime”
And that’s all I have to say about that.
Ceej
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