Bitz 'N' Blogs with CJ Cross

I had no intention of writing a blog this week.

I’m too tired, to exhausted, emotionally spent and I feel like my nervous system hasn’t been able to relax in months.

There are so many things that need to be fixed, so many things that need to be done and so many issues that need to be addressed, I simply have no idea what to do or where to start.

I feel like the weight of the world is on top of me, like no one around me is willing to be accountable for their actions and they just expect me to either turn a blind eye or make excuses for the messes they’ve caused.

I’m hurt, angry and upset and every single person I’ve tried to talk to has simply dismissed me or expected me to simply suck it up and deal with it.

“This has nothing to do with you, so you don’t have to worry about it” seems to be the current theme in my life. Thing is, it has everything to do with me and the reason that it has everything to do with me is because I feel like I have been left to *verbally fix* everything or *explain away* what’s been going on, while everyone else just gets away scot free without consequences … and honestly, I’m so bloody tired.

I’m so tired and worn out I’ve actually reached out to EAP (employee assist) – the free service provided by my work place for a little bit of help and guidance. I’ve booked appointments for various different services they provide and my hope is that over the next 6 months I find a way through all of this.

Thanks for reading

Ceej